Singer Kesha revealed during a recent interview that her anxiety once got so intense that she actually believed she might be experiencing a psychotic break.
The popular “Die Young” singer sat down with Apple Music’s Zane Lowe, and during the course of a wide-ranging conversation, the topic turned to mental health and what it meant to “act normal.”
The “Praying” songstress explained the situation, saying, “I went through this crazy psychedelic spiritual experience in the midst of the anxiety … it was pure anxiety. My brain felt like … I thought maybe it was the process of having a psychotic break or something.”
“I’m a triple Pisces, I love weird, unexplainable, spiritual, supernatural stuff,” the singer continued, explaining that she hadn’t really found peace on a personal level until she really dove into her own spirituality until she felt comfortable with herself.
“So after this happened to me, I went down a total — it’s my rabbit hole I’m currently in, is just the paranormal and also different spirituality, different things people believe in. I’m just trying to read about it because I feel like we’re all talking about a similar thing,” she said.
The singer said that she often felt as though her “social graces have gotten a little rusty,” adding — when Lowe laughed and asked her to provide a “playful example” — that she found herself discussing intensely personal things with strangers.
“When people start doing small talk, I start telling them about my like psychedelic experience and then they’re just like, ‘I just wanted to ride the elevator with you’ and it’s just impossible now,” she said. “I’m like … full-blown.”
“This is also — the question in my mind is, ‘How do you act normal?’ Like what does that mean?” she continued.
She went on to describe just how crippling her anxiety had been at times, noting that her initial image was so loved that she felt as though she couldn’t show all sides of herself.