Last Monday, "Fox & Friends" co-host Ainsley Earhardt opened up about suffering a miscarriage in a video for "I Am Second," an organization that shares testimonies of influential Christians.
"National television personality, Ainsley Earhardt, dreamed of being an entertainer. She didn’t know where that dream would take her, but she always knew she wanted to make people smile," reads the caption for the video from I Am Second. "But Ainsley had another big dream. She wanted to be a mom."
"When she found out she was pregnant, she couldn’t wait to meet her child. She went into the sonogram like most mothers-to-be excited to see that first fuzzy black and white picture of her child. When the doctor couldn’t find a heartbeat, Ainsley’s worst fears were realized. She found herself in a dark place of pain, fear, and doubt, wondering if she would ever feel whole again. Could Jesus really be trusted to heal that pain?" the caption continues.
Telling her story, Earhardt recalled her trouble with getting pregnant, the pain of losing a child, feelings of blame, and trusting in God.
"I was a planner. I had my whole life planned out," she said, but "when I started trying to have children, I was not successful."
The Fox News morning host finally became pregnant. "It was so beautiful and we were so excited," Earhardt said of hearing her child’s heartbeat for the first time.
At her next appointment, however, the broadcaster was met with troubling news.
"I just wanna prepare you, it might not be good," her doctor warned her. "I'm sure everything is fine, but the baby was really small at the first appointment," she added.
The doctor "puts the stuff on your stomach and runs that ultrasound and she saw the baby, and we saw the baby on the screen," recalled Earhardt. "And just like before, she had to find the heartbeat, and we saw the heart. And she put the wand in that area and there was no heartbeat. So she just looked at us and said, ‘I’m so sorry,’ and she just tried and she tried, and there was nothing there. There was no heartbeat."
"We had just prayed for a healthy baby and I knew that God answered that prayer," Earhardt said in tears. "And you walk down the streets of New York and you see other girls with their carriages and their strollers and their babies and their baby-bumps and you want it so badly. I started thinking, should I have done this earlier? Is this my fault? What’s going on?"
Earhardt had to have her deceased baby removed through a procedure called a D&C.
"I remember going in for the D&C, which is the surgery, and I remember crying because I didn’t want them to take her away from me," she recalled. "I just imagined my child going in for testing, and it was so scientific, and this was my child. I just thought, I’m going to be separated from this baby until I go to heaven."
Earhardt said that she had no choice but to trust in God.
After unsuccessfully trying to have a child post-miscarriage, Earhardt took a break from trying. But soon enough, she learned she was with child.
"I took the pregnancy test, and it said pregnant," she said.
"I am so glad I have a little girl, she’s like my partner," gushed Earhardt. "She’s the best, she’s my little girl."
"I know that women are hurting. I know that men are hurting. I know that you can get through it. And it might not be your plan, and it might not be what you want for your life. Know that God has a plan and God works it all out. Life is such a journey. Every step of it, good or bad, is still beautiful," Earhardt closes the video.