"I can't help but feeling like the shooter was a martyr," said Kalyn Chapman James, the first black woman crowned Miss Alabama, during a two-minute rant about the anti-police massacre in Dallas on Thursday night which resulted with five dead officers.
James, who was crowned in 1993, added that she doesn't "feel sad" for the deceased who were murdered for being white officers.
The former beauty queen rationalized her despicable take on the massacre by expressing her grief over black men allegedly being targeted by police officers (which studies have debunked): "I'm so torn up in my heart about seeing these men, these black men, being gunned down in our community," she said.
"I wasn't surprised by what the shooter did to those cops and I think a lot of us feel the same way," she added.
Watch the video below:
At the outset of the video, James claims that she is just leaving church and is "dealing with a bit of guilt."
"I don't feel sad for the officers who lost their lives" she said, in tears. "I know that's not really my heart. I value human life. And I want to feel sad for them but I can't help but feeling like the shooter was a martyr."
"And I know it's not the right way to feel because nobody deserves to lose their lives and I know that those police officers had families and people who loved them and that they didn't deserve to die," she said, before adding a qualifier: "But I'm so torn up in my heart about seeing these men, these black men, being gunned down in our community that I can't help, I can't help but feel like..."
James added that she "wasn't surprised by what the shooter did to those cops and I think a lot of us feel the same way and I know it's not right and I definitely don't condone violence," she said, before adding an emotional rationale for violence: "But I'm sick of this and I'm sad and I'm hurt."
"I do not condone violence against innocent people," said James, before, again, adding a qualifier: "but I'm sick of this, I'm sick of this and something has to be done, period.
"I don't know what else to say, it's a lot to deal with and I know I'm not the only way feeling like this," she reiterated.
Since the disturbing video posted by James, she has clarified her "emotional" rant to AL.com:
"My heart and my mind were conflicted because these are difficult and very emotional times for so many people. I went to church to address my feelings and deal with them from a perspective of forgiveness and love. Especially forgiving myself for feeling that way. I regret that any people lost their lives this week and I am saddened by all of the shootings that occurred. But, this is not about me. When reading about the killings of those black men, I was mortified by some of the comments about them. Many People were not conflicted at all about those deaths. Some were okay with this. These are raw wounds that are fresh and, while I apologize if I offended anyone, I cannot help the way I feel as I continue to process these events and deal with the flood of emotions that come from witnessing such atrocities - both against citizens and officers of the law. The fact that my opinion was considered newsworthy makes me feel like speaking up was exactly what I should do, because I can voice what so many people are feeling and dealing with and they should know they are not alone. I reiterate that I do not condone violence or killing at all. I offer my deepest condolences to all the families who lost their loved ones this week, including the officers in Dallas."
H/T Kent Faulk